| wow... xanga... ive been really off the walls lately, confused I guess, and I thought i'd write in this thing to vent a little. It's been so long, wow my last entry was the last day of high school and to think i'm a sophmore in college now... I truly was happy in m last few entries which is really great to look back at.
I guess i've just been stressed lately. I feel really stupid. I mean i study so hard for my exams and have not been doing well, i honestly dont know what more I could have done to prepare. I don't want to be a disappointment, i know my dad has such high expectations for me, to go to law school to be in business. But honestly, I'm not sure thats what I want. The truth is though, I have NO IDEA what I want and I really don't have much time to figure it out. So why not go to law school? I mean clearly i'll be well off if I do... If i can get through the headache that law school is. If I can even make it there... i'm just confused, I wish i had a passion, I wish i truly cared about something enough to want to pursue it. It's sad to be raised with EVERYTHING and not know one thing about hardship and then not be able to perform well on exams, when thats the ONE thing i'm asked of... it makes me wonder what i'm doing with my life, and what i'm doing here.
I just want to make my parents proud. I just want to be happy, successful and do well in life. I just want to give back for everything i have received. I guess I have a lot of thinking to do... |
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| Its crazy. I just finished my last day of classes in highschool...EVER!!!! It's amazing, I can't believe the last 12 years of my elementry education is finally over. Now, its time for the real thing... we've prepared for this for years, and its finally happening...COLLEGE!! It's unbelieveable, amazing and bittersweet all at once. Goodbye West Windsor Plainsboro Highschool North---07! Hello Temple University---11!  |
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| so whats new? I'm 18 now! which is totally awesome. I've done plenty of legal things in the past 2 weeks... I got a tattoo and went to a strip club!! both veryyy cool. I have a boyfriend who is great. I'm really happy right now with life and its just amazing. It's finally everything I could ask for and more. I love this feeling.  |
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| Life is pretty good right now. Disney was last week and it was a pretty fun time! ...spring break is next week, junior prom is in 2 1/2 weeks, yay! Then my 18th birthday and sharons party followed by my strip club extravaganza!!!!! ...then senior prom, followed by graduation, summer and college! soooo excited. Partying with my lovers is soon to be at an all time high! I love my girls and I met a boy who i totally like.... yeah life is pretty damn good right now. lets NOT jinks that! |
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| I can't take it anymore. I HATE THIS TOWN SO MUCH. It's not even the town that i hate so much, its just being here for so long and around the same damn people for 14 years.... I need something new, I NEED COLLEGE, now!! ugh anyways. |
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